To feel always at odds with oneself? I feel like I am constantly struggling to feel close to content. And I just want that feeling so bad I feel like I would do anything to have it.
I'm not sure if I'm supposed to keep reaching, striving for better and more. It seems it's just an exercise in futility. I want that "Life is good" status on Facebook. I want to be able to feel that emotion so greatly that I have to post it for everyone to see.
I guess I just keep trying. I just want to fix it. I'm a fixer. I make things ok.
So why can't I just do that already for myself? Maybe I'm just not supposed to?
