The skeleton seems to be forming and I'm filling in the blanks. Meaning...I know what the main objectives are, now I need to work on finalizing details and developing action items.
The "Skeleton" is basically the concept of me quitting my current pt/time - 3/4 time job as a Personal Assistant and going back to school for Cosmetology. It feels a little scary and a lot exciting!
But when you have two school aged children there are no "just jump into it"s you have to plan things out - after school care, summer care, dinner, which adult will be home which night...blah, blah, blah into infinity.
I'm getting there...have lots to do still though. The BIG one is telling my boss. I am utterly terrified. In a lot of ways I really do not want to leave. But I KNOW I must in order to keep growing. I feel strongly that I need to become a more major income earner in our family. And that just can't happen doing what I'm doing now. I also need to feed my creative self and allow my self to be absorbed by something that makes me happy. What doesn't make me happy is serving someone elses needs constantly.
I have other goals too. My weight is higher than ever, and I'm extremely frustrated by it. I am constantly exhausted, like to the point of hardly being able to get out of bed. I am sore and annoyed with myself. I used to be so active even though I've always been heavy. I haven't had the time or will to do things to make my body happier in a while. So I'm giving things a lot of thought and trying to be more mindful. I really don't have a plan for this so for now I'm just trying to think it out.
So all in all I'm optimistic and hopeful just busy making plans...at least I do THAT well :)
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