My Theraputic Approach to Weight Control

I flew to Las Vegas in March of this year for my first Passion Parties Convention.

Each plane I flew on I required a lap belt extension to reach the clasp.  Embarrassing, yes - but because I am cool, I played it off like I didn't care.  It was just a fact.  I am too fat to be able to affix the standard belt.  But it cut me deep, I do NOT want to be like this.  I want to look like the person I feel like.  I feel hot, sexy and confident. 

But more than that I don't want to DIE.  I want to live a complete and active life.  I have enjoyed being active even as an obese person (yep, I said it obese) - I have incredible stamina and love pushing myself to do things with my body that some of my skinny counterparts find difficult.

But with the last re-gain, re-fat or whatever you call it I have lost an immense amount of strength and stamina.  I suck at doing stuff now.  I did a 90 minute Bikram Yoga class in early December!  However within 24 hours I injured (stepped off a stair wrong) my left ankle so badly I was in a walking cast and limping for weeks.

So there I was in Las Vegas and feeling like a gigantic monster of fat.  The women in this business are for the most part quite lovely.  Many are drop dead gorgeous and thin.  It is not a prerequisite obviously, but a stunning observation I had while at Convention.

When I came back from Convention I had carpel tunnel surgery and spent time thinking about why I want to lose weight.  Why is it so hard to keep on a plan, or to even get started for that matter.

I reached out to a dear friend in the psychology community to help me find someone who deals with patients with eating disorders.  She quickly found me a name.  I have been having personal sessions with her for a couple of months.  She focuses on Congnitive Behavioral Therapy.  She and a dietician run a Weight Control Therapy Group that meets weekly for 18 weeks.  I signed up with my wallet ready to dole out the $830.

Stay tuned, even this old Weight Watcher is learning a few new things ..... ♥